Confidence is a Bumpy Road

Stardate: 21st September 2014


I have a confession.

I… I struggle with self confidence.

Many don’t realise this, because of the level of persistence, detail, and work I put in to anything I want in life.

I am confident in the things I have achieved and learned… But never confident during the process.


But, despite doubts… I keep my head down and work until I achieve what I desire. Insanity? Maybe. My cognitive processes are anything but normal, and I’m fine with that.

One thing I’ve always doubted, but worked insanely hard at is my artistry.

I’ve heard comments on both sides of the coin: “he’s a gimmick”; “he’s brilliant.”

Many times I’m not sure which side I fall on. But then they are nights like tonight when, full of doubt, I touch the mic…and get lost in the art… And sometimes I fall out of the zone for a second and realise that people around are also caught up.

Those are the moments that I live and work for… In all areas of my life.

I’ve babbled.

All of this to say: look for those moments.

Doesn’t matter if it’s in your job or relationship, or hobby, or a new skill you’re looking to learn.

Look for those moments when everything around you melts away, and you find yourself immersed in the purity of your pursuit.

…That moment when you smile from your very soul.

Confidence is a bumpy road.
Use those sparks to keep it well-lit.

-Corey “Narkissos” Springer

People who post Motivational Posters…

…are usually unhappy, social vampires.

Social Vampire in Training


I apologise in advance if I’m unveiling your scam to the world… but, i see through you: Posting quotes from authors you’ve never read; stuff you think people will like.

‘Cus if they like it: they’ll click ‘like’ on the post. Maybe they’ll comment. Maybe they’ll share. Maybe they’ll thank you for your positivity, and laud you for your depth… and maybe the mist generated, will elevate you above the darkness and doubt inside that you choose to hide from yourself.

But you’ll still be unhappy. And tomorrow you’ll do it all over again.

/end rant

Stardate: 5th September 2014

To access a positive outcome, a person needs to be able to think in (and quantify) negatives. This is where the omni-positive-everything-will-work-out crowd ends up spinning its wheels, posting ‘inspirational’ pics, while failing.

‘Cus everything does *not* work out: life isn’t unicorns farts and rainbows. With light comes dark, dirty begets clean… Likewise, failure and success are opposing sides of the same coin.

Focusing on one, without formulating contingencies for the other, won’t make the preferred outcome the automatic one.

There is nothing wrong with fear, for example.

Fear makes us aware of our surroundings, our limits, potential threats, and pitfalls.

I’m afraid.

I’m afraid daily.

I acknowledge this.

But, do you know what happens next? I quantify it. I measure the risks (if any), the threats (if any)… and I come up with a plan. Then: One foot in front of the other.

Left. Right. Left.

I doubt.

Left. Right. Left.

I doubt daily.

But, I also trust… and persevere.

Left. Right. Left.


Every emotion we have,  ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ alike, is valid… and purposed.

Don’t be afraid to be afraid.

Don’t be ‘that guy’.

-Corey “Narkissos” Springer

Fake it, ‘Til you Make it

Stardate: 4th September 2014

“Get real!”

We applaud children for their ability to pretend. We pay actors hundreds of thousands of dollars for the same ability… All-the-while, crying down our fellow adults for not being ‘real’ enough. Humans are so confused… so very confused.

There is a place for fake.

For example:
The customer isn’t always right.

Sometimes the customer is a cunt. But being a good businessperson means slapping on your most sincere pretend smile, spreading your imaginary broad back even broader, and rolling with it.


Sometimes, your life decisions go against the grain…leaving you as your only supporter.

Sometimes, ‘here’ is the last place you want to be.

Sometimes, you’re broke and hungry.

Sometimes, you’re unhappy. But, becoming the success you know you can be means slapping on that fake confidence, rubbing that pretend-full tummy, and sauntering cooly in to the belly of the beast… Cus if you wore your true circumstance outwardly, it would remain your reality.

Fake it til you make it.
Make-believe isn’t only a childhood indulgence.

-Corey “Narkissos” Springer

Searching for Happiness??!

…look no further.

Stardate: 17th August 2014

You are the architect of your own happiness.

Ultimately, it is the only happiness over which you have any control… And, it is the only happiness that truly matters.


Sounds selfish? Ponder this then:
How can you attempt to do for someone else what you have failed to do for yourself?

Too many of us sink the entirety of our emotional stock in to making others happy: living as others deem appropriate; loving through others’ eyes; dying inside… To what end?

Love you. Make the you, you see reflected in the mirror… smile.

-Corey “Narkissos” Springer

Humans are Afraid of Falling

Stardate: 14th August 2014

While training a young lady, I noticed her wobble slightly. I stepped in immediately to offer her support and security. But, despite having that safety net, her mind told her ‘you’re going to fall’, and her body reacted to match. Hands flailed about. Long, well-manicured nails slashed left and right… costing me a few deep scratches.

And, it made me think: Humans are programmed to be afraid of falling… regardless of whatever safety nets are in place.


Falling, whether career-wise, love-wise, or physically, sends the brain in to overdrive. The thought leads to them causing harm to themselves and those around them. It also gets in the way of progress.

I thought about gymnastics/tumbling and martial arts… how one of the first skills one is taught is how to fall safely… because both art forms recognise how essential it is to allow oneself to fall, before one can pick oneself up (or use the momentum to shift in to a new movement pattern).

So, why don’t we teach ourselves the same in life? Why don’t we teach it to our children… instead of rushing to pick them up when they wobble (and bailing them out before they hit rock bottom in their adult life)?

Think on these things.

-Corey “Narkissos” Springer