Stardate: 21st September 2014
I have a confession.
I… I struggle with self confidence.
Many don’t realise this, because of the level of persistence, detail, and work I put in to anything I want in life.
I am confident in the things I have achieved and learned… But never confident during the process.
But, despite doubts… I keep my head down and work until I achieve what I desire. Insanity? Maybe. My cognitive processes are anything but normal, and I’m fine with that.
One thing I’ve always doubted, but worked insanely hard at is my artistry.
I’ve heard comments on both sides of the coin: “he’s a gimmick”; “he’s brilliant.”
Many times I’m not sure which side I fall on. But then they are nights like tonight when, full of doubt, I touch the mic…and get lost in the art… And sometimes I fall out of the zone for a second and realise that people around are also caught up.
Those are the moments that I live and work for… In all areas of my life.
All of this to say: look for those moments.
Doesn’t matter if it’s in your job or relationship, or hobby, or a new skill you’re looking to learn.
Look for those moments when everything around you melts away, and you find yourself immersed in the purity of your pursuit.
…That moment when you smile from your very soul.
Confidence is a bumpy road.
Use those sparks to keep it well-lit.
-Corey “Narkissos” Springer