Stardate: 19th August 2015
Hey all. I had an amazingly cathartic experience, that I’d like to share with you.
This isn’t a religious post, but it did stem from a counseling session I had with my pastor yesterday. So… there’s that disclaimer. 🙂
In the session, my pastor said to me:
“The greatest gift you can give a person, is forgiveness.”
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To my pastor’s declaration, I’d replied:
“But, this [forgiveness] goes against everything that I’m feeling.”
Truthfully, in my heart of hearts, I could not conceptualise my lips verbalising “I forgive you” in any shape or form. Even thinking about it felt like a slight to my intelligence. It felt… as if I were urinating on my self worth. Dramatic? Maybe. But that was exactly how I felt in that moment… like I’d need a shower afterward.
My pastor replied:
“I know. But… forgiveness isn’t about accepting what they’ve done, or condoning it. It’s about healing… for both of you. You let go, and allow an opportunity to heal. Because you can’t heal if you’re still holding on to hurt.”
And, finally, the difference clicked for me.
“I forgive you.”
These were the hardest words I’ve vocalised in a long time. “I’m sorry” doesn’t nearly compare. “I love you” isn’t nearly as heavy.
“I forgive you.”
With those words, I released a burden that I hadn’t even realised I’d been carrying. With it, came tears. With them? Lightness.
Who will you release today?
Yours in health, peace, and fitness,
– Corey Springer
Apollo Fitness Barbados
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